Friday, March 21, 2008

Welcome to My New Blog Home!

Faithful readers, I'm really sorry to do this to you. But I needed to change at least the blog portion of my website in order for me to better integrate features that were lacking at my old blog home. You'll see what I mean in the weeks to come.

You can still access this blog through the Lynn's Journey site (www.freewebs.com/lynnsjourney) by clicking on My Weight-Loss Blog. The tab "Blog Archives" are blogs written the last few months that one day, when I figure out exactly how, I will move over here.

In the meantime, welcome to new blog home Blog #1.

I've been thinking a lot about change lately, probably because it's spring and spring is a time of renewal. I've never understood why we make resolutions to change on Jan. 1, in the dead of winter when motivation is at an all-time low. Make them in the spring when everything is fresh and new!

I'm resolving to change my body image. Yes, you read that right. I had a rough few days this week with body image. I went to the Gap and Target on Wednesday and tried on some summer shirts. I hadn’t really looked at my upper body since late summer since I’ve been buried in long-sleeved shirts all winter. What I saw in the dressing room mirror surprised me and actually scared me in a way.

I have a major rotator cuff tear in my right shoulder and a minor tear in my left. I also have bursitis and arthritis in both shoulder joints. I opted not to have surgery just yet because my granddaughter was just born and it would be months before I could hold her. I went to see a chiropractor and she's done wonders. Through weekly treatments (sometimes very painful treatments) and daily rehab exercises with hand weights, I am relatively pain free and have 80 to 90 percent mobility.

This is great news and I'll continue to rehab and see my chiropractor for treatments. However, all those exercises have really defined my arms and chest, which means on my medium to large-boned frame, I am very bony and old looking. I was shocked when I saw my reflection in the dressing room mirrors. Really honestly shocked. The bottom half of me looks the same, but the top is kind of scary.

I'm also going to tell you a truth not everyone likes to hear: the excess skin under my arms (my armpits) is more apparent, too. More than it was last summer. This means I want to be careful what kinds of clothes I wear. Yes, I’m vain that way.

I was mad at first. I mean, here I go and lose all kinds of weight and I have to be almost as selective about clothes as I was at 300 pounds. Then with the help of my maintenance support group, I realize that I’ll probably never be satisfied with how I look and so I’m learning to accept the person I look like now.

I do the rehab because it helps my shoulders. The consequence is that I’m cut and bony. I can live with that. I will change my body image. It'll take some time is all.

Are there any changes you want to make? Small or big, it doesn't matter. Let us know!

7 comments:

  1. De-lurking here. :-)I will admit, that is the one thing that is kind of scaring me as well .... the loose skin under the arms thing. I can deal with the belly flap/flab as my abdominal area has had a lot of stretch put on it, what with my weight and having twins.But the arm sag is another thing completely. BTW, your blog has been very inspiring.

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  2. HI CONGRATS ON YOUR SUCCESS ID TAKE MY HAT OFF TO YOU IF I HAD ONE LOL GOOD LUCK WITH THE NEW WEB SITE I DONT THINK ANYONE IS TRUELY HAPPY WITH THE WAY THEY LOOK I WAS ALWAYS LOOKING FOR PERFECTION AND REALLY I HAD IT AS CLOSE AS IT COULD BE NOW IM SO FAR FROM THAT PERSON ITS SEEMS RIGHT OUT OF REACH TO BE THIN AGAIN I STRUGGLE EVERY DAY IM READING YOUR BLOGS TO TRY AND HELP ME GET THERE KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK CHEERS KARINA

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  3. I defintely understand what you mean about the arms. So far my ultimate nemesis has been the stretch marks. I'm almost half way to goal (52 pounds so far) and every time I look in the mirror all I see is the stretch marks. I too will have to work very hard on improving my self image. As of yet I have no idea how to accomplish that, but hey, knowing is half the battle right. As least once I "know", I'll be half way there..lol. Congrats on your success. Your blog is a huge inspiration for me!
    ~Mrs. Jay

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  4. Dear Lynn, I have had the same experience with body image, and am still working on it! As of today i've lost 94 lbs. on weight watchers, and have mostly been maintaining for 2 years, but am still working on it and hope someday to lose 25 more. but when i first lost all this weight, it was a huge disappointment that my body did not look like it looked the last time i lost weight in my late 20's (I am 53). And I had to work on the realization that I never would look that way again. It is still somewhat frustrating to me, and I still never want to be seen in a bathing suit, but I am working on it. I know that if I had always been a normal weight, and reached this age, my body would still be aging like this, and I still would have had to adjust what I am willing to wear in public. It's just that 20+ year gap, almost like sleeping for all that time and waking up and finding that the world has changed drastically. It's gonna take some time to adjust.

    Your website/blog has been such an inspiration to me. I am excited about your work on maintenance. Not enough has been written about this, and whether people lose weight slowly, or quickly, or very quickly (surgery), it seems that the same amount of time has to go into maintenance work. My thought is that losing slowly, you are actually ahead of the game, because you are working at maintenance all along the way.

    Ha--I tried several times to send you this comment over the weekend, and I thought I was the one being "investigated!"

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  5. Hi Lynn.... Congratulations on your huge weight loss! You are such an inspiration. I love reading your blogs... I've read them all and thoroughly enjoyed them and your photos. I do have to say though, that I feel you are looking too thin and unhealthy. Maybe it's because I'm still a fat person looking at you, but it looks as though you may have gone too far! Please be careful. I'm sure you are very proud of yourself, as would I, but just be careful and maybe put on a few pounds.

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  6. Lynn ~ I am so inspired by you. I didn't have lots to lose but your website and blog helped me achieve it. I took me 3 months of hard exercise and WW to lose 10 pounds. But I did it and feel great. I am 45 years old. You look absolutely amazing. Your new hair cut is adorable, but you would be adorable in any hair style.

    What truly inspired me was your saying, "I am so glad that I did this" (or close to it). I too, am so glad that I set a goal and did it.

    I really enjoy reading about you and your family. Thanks so much for putting it out there.

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  7. You don't look too thin. You look just perfect. Go with what your doctor told you.

    I think that people who don't exercise, don't understand that weight comes off of areas that aren't exercised, like your face. Your face is beautiful.

    We exercisers and fit people don't have pudge around their faces. It is a good thing.

    I wrote the comment before this one. I don't know how to put my name in, but it is Susan.

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