Tuesday, April 7, 2009

I'm Not A Patient Patient

Man, I get cranky when I haven’t worked out in three days. I can’t stand living with me right now, so I can only imagine what my husband’s thinking. Hmmm…do you suppose that’s why he was out of the house before I got up this morning and has dinner plans with colleagues tonight? Can’t say as I blame him.

Catching up on my blog reading, I see many of my favorite bloggers are suffering from stomach bug, recovering from surgeries, moving, all kinds of things that are keeping them away from exercise. At least I’m in good company. I’ve had a stupid allergy-turned-sinus-infection for what feels like two weeks but it’s only been four days.

I really am a bad patient. Worse than any guy I’ve been married to or lived with. (Except maybe my father. Back surgery, heart attack…no problem, he’s undemanding. The man gets a sniffle and his world crashes in and he takes the rest of us with him.)

My problem is that I don’t like to watch television, and I can only tolerate one, maybe two, movies in one day. When I have a sinus headache I can’t focus to read very well, so books and magazines are out. Audible.com is tempting, but I really don’t have the $15 a month to spare right now.

Ugh. Excuses excuses. Whine whine whine. If I could just get on the elliptical for 30 minutes, life would be so much more settled. But I can’t or my head will explode, so I’m stuck learning new ways to be patient with myself.

Lyn over at Escape from Obesity had an excellent entry today about how, in recovering from the stomach bug, she was reminded how tired she was on an average day when she weighed 50 pounds more than she does now. It made me think about my life pre-exercise and how I dealt with stress and boredom. I watched a lot of television back then. Had TiVo and everything. I read a lot of books, too, not that that’s a bad thing. How I mean it is that when I was 300 pounds, I purposely stayed non-physically busy so I wouldn’t think about how I weighed 300 pounds. Taking a walk was out of the question, but today, I’d give anything to go for a walk. Well, maybe not a walk today. It’s currently 30 degrees and snowing, so even if I were healthy, I wouldn’t go anyway…but I’d do something physical at least.

I get all agitated anymore when I can’t sweat. I’m also hungrier on days I don’t work out, and now that I’m on day three of no exercise, my mind is in my refrigerator. I do battle with do I need to eat or do I just want to eat?

Tomorrow I’m back at the exercise, even if it’s just for a little while. I’m out of sync, out of my schedule…I need to be normal again, even if my ears make everything sound like I’m living at the bottom of a barrel. A good sweat at the end of a sinus infection might be just the thing to clear it out. It will do wonders for my head, either way.

14 comments:

  1. Ugh! I'm sorry you are suffering too! I wanted to walk SO BADLY today. I kept thinking about it but I knew it would turn out badly if I did. So I sat in the sunshine on the deck instead.

    I hope we BOTH feel better enough to do *something* tomorrow!

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  2. Sorry you've been sick - I dread the day when I get thrown off of my workout schedule! Interesting that you wrote you are not as hungry on the days you exercise...I'm the same way, and it weirds me out because you'd think it would be the opposite!

    Hope you're feeling much better soon!

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  3. Sorry you've been sick!
    Does your library have books on tape or CD? Mine has tons, so that is an option if you can't read.

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  4. sorry youve been sick (but Ive loved youve been sick if thats why youve had a chance to email me :) Im selfish that way)

    and I shall repeat what you know: take is sloooowly today :)

    Miz.

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  5. I wish I could make myself always remember how GOOD I feel when I work out. I rode the elliptical for 40 minutes on Monday night after 2 weeks of slacking. My mood, my outlook, everything just brightened. I felt more alive and productive. So why do I resist it??

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  6. Hope you're feeling better soon. Take it easy.

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  7. google "nasaline" - that device has cured some sinus infections for me and my sisters.

    good luck

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  8. If you like NPR shows - there are lots of things that you can listen to for free on their website. some of the more popular shows (Wait, Wait, This American Life, Car Talk) you can only download the current week's show for free - but other things like Science Friday, Story of the Day, Fresh Air - have more free shows available.

    And as a house of allergy people - we all spray with saline several times a day - year round. It seems to keep things moving and avoid turning into sinus infections. we do NOT use the squeeze bottles (sucks things IN as well as out and then the bottle turns into a science experiment) - so we all use Simply Saline (can). I keep one in a kitchen drawer (spray while waiting for microwave), my yoga bag (spray before class - helps with the breath work in class), my car (something to do at stop lights). It has made a HUGE difference in my sinus's cooperation with my life.

    And - the amount of body aches that instantly appear when I miss my exercise routine is STAGGERING.

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  9. Working out is such a hard thing for me to be consistant at....Love your blog and will be back to read more.

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  10. I have been looking for inspirational blogs...and I am so glad to have found you!

    I started my WW 'life' in January 09 (after giving up many times before that). But a blog is a wonderful tool...I find it keeps me on track, motivated and accountable to myself and friends who visit my blog routinely.

    I will be referring back to your blog many times until I reach my goal! 15 down...60 to go.

    congratulations!!!

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  11. When you are sick there is nothing you can do but get plenty of rest and get back at it later.

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  12. I've certainly been enjoying your blog for a while now. I loved seeing you on Oprah too. In your skinny jeans, you were one of the most encouraging stories that day. So, I loved reading your side of the story with those jeans.

    Good luck feeling better. I know I get hungrier too when I don't exercise.

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  13. Ask your hubby to pick up some books on tape or CD from the library. Entertainment for you, and your hubby will probably welcome to opportunity to leave the house since you are not a fun patient! ha ha! Hope you are feeling better soon.

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  14. one time as im watching Tv the Oprah show (i love it) i saw you and i was really amazed. your story was very encouraging and uplifting. keep encouraging people lyn.
    Hope you're feeling much better soon!

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