Three years later, I was a size 6.
2009: I opened a letter from one of my credit card companies. They said, cryptically, that even though I was a “valued customer,” they were raising my interest rate to 32 percent. I thought, “This is nuts. I can’t do this anymore.”
As of yesterday, I’m paying 6 percent.
32 might be bigger, but 6 offers a lot more breathing space.
For me, being morbidly obese is a lot like being in debt:
- Size 32: I had no idea how many calories I consumed every day.
- 32 percent: I had no idea how much money I spent every month.
- Size 32: I masked emotional issues with overconsumption of food.
- 32 percent: I masked emotional issues with overconsumption of goods.
But familiar doesn’t mean easy. Nothing life-changing is ever easy. Becoming debt free doesn’t happen overnight and it’s taken me into the path of some degrading people. Explaining my personal finances to someone who doesn’t give a ratsass and only wants me to pay my *bleepin* bill feels a lot like being called a fat name when I was 300 pounds. I guess just as people have a million excuses not to lose weight, they have a million excuses to not pay their bills and it’s not easy to know who is sincere. Still, to assume everyone’s lying isn’t fair either. But I digress…
Remember how you felt the first time someone noticed you lost weight? I do and it felt really good. I had the same feeling last week when my change in attitude from “I have no idea how much I spend a month” to hard-core financial diva caught my husband’s attention.
“You’ve embraced this whole financial thing like you did your weight.”
Why, yes. Yes I have. *smile* Thank you for noticing.