Wednesday, July 7, 2010

It’s The Not Knowing

I’m up a little early, nervously anticipating my first physical therapy session later this morning.

“You’ll want to take your paid meds before she arrives,” warned my in-home nurse last week.

Yikes.

It’s the not knowing that gets most of us at some point in our lives. A new job, losing a job, getting married, getting divorced, having a baby, sending that baby off to college, surgery, getting old. What will it feel like? How will we handle it? The answer is, we don’t know, we CAN’T know – even after hearing from or reading about people who’ve been there and done that – how it will be until it is.

I get a lot of email from people asking me what their lives will be like after losing more than 100 pounds. What will their skin look like? Will people recognize them? Will they be able to maintain? All I can say is, “Try it and see.”

Rather than worry about skin or life at goal, see what happens – one, two, five pounds at a time – to your energy level. See what happens to your cholesterol and blood pressure. See what happens to your joints. See what happens in these smaller increments of weight loss to the way you feel about yourself.

You gotta do the trying before you do the seeing.

And on this particular day in my life, I’m trying physical therapy.

While I’m not approaching it in the same way I approached weight loss (I didn’t lose my appetite, sleep or tips of my nails before starting my weight loss journey), they are similar in many ways. Namely, I know it will be difficult and I know it’s totally up to me how successful I am. I also promised myself, as I did before I lost my first pound, to give it everything I’ve got. No excuses.

Still, it’s the not knowing that gets me every time. To help ebb that tide of worry a little, I’m lying in bed and writing this blog and preparing my mind for the trying. I’m listening to the birds at the feeder, feeling the air from the window fan blow across my feet, and assuring myself that in a few hours I’ll know.

And I can handle anything once I know what I’m facing.

9 comments:

  1. I really liked this post. I have been through physical theraphy for my knee and it was okay. They made me stretch a lot and really worked on my knee. You can do anything you set your mind to. Look how great you have done with your weight loss.

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  2. "Try it and see" is very good advice.

    Will I have loose skin? Will I enjoy being thinner? Will I struggle and gain it all back?" I have no way of really knowing until I LOSE the weight and experience it for myself.

    Great post, thanks :)

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  3. I hope it was not too difficult for you today. When I have gone thru medical situations, each day I'd wake I would think I am one day closer to feeling well again. You're moving in a good direction Lynn, hang in there!

    From the other Lynne, lol

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  4. p.s. Kind of funny...three of us with the same variation of a name....Lyn, Lynn and Lynne!

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  5. Can't wait to hear how your therapy went today. Hope it's not as bad as it was the last time. Keep being strong... you know what you are capable of!

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  6. Good luck with PT hope it goes well for you.

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  7. Hope the pain meds worked for the PT!

    For me, the not knowing about what happens after you lose the weight was eased tremendously by reading about others who paved the way and lived to blog about it... ;)

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  8. Hey, hope PT was good for ya. Pain meds before and ice after. I've had a good bit of PT for knee and ....butt pain. The butt pain was a sciatic thing and I wasn't stretching enough. I luv PT.

    drugs/ ice.

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  9. Thanks, Lynn, for this excellent post. It's so true. We are sometimes immobilized by fear of the unknown, but if we keep doing the same old thing, we will keep getting the same result. I just posted about what I need to do to get my life on track. It's sometimes painful, but so is the alternative of doing nothing. I hope the physical therapy went well for you. Take care...

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