Wednesday, October 6, 2010

My Knock It Off! Challenge

I’ve been here before. Five pounds up. It happened in 2008 and I wrote about it at Refuse to Regain. (See “A Tale of Five Pounds.” )

Those five pounds were due to my sensitivity to “S” foods: starches, sugars, sorbital and sucralose. I got careless with my diet and from August to November, I gained five pounds. When I restricted the S foods to 2-3 a day, those five pounds went away in three weeks.

These current five pounds are post-surgical pains in the butt, but last Monday, I put on my big girl undies and challenged myself to knock those bad boys to the curb. I’m calling it my Knock It Off! challenge.

It’s been a long time since I’ve committed to a challenge. Sure, I’m committed to walking normally again and am faithful to physical therapy, but I’m talking about a personal challenge. Something I do only because I want to. To prove I can. To fit into my skinny jeans again.

You know me, I always have a plan. I didn’t wake up on Monday and say, “Gosh, I think I’ll lose five pounds!” I journaled over the weekend, answering these questions:

1. Why do I want to lose five pounds?
2. If I didn’t lose five pounds, would I be OK with that – physically and emotionally?
3. How will I lose five pounds?

My answers (The Readers Digest version):

1. I want to lose five pounds because I don’t like how they feel around my middle. I feel bloated and my pants are tight. There’s a point at which – usually around 126-130 – that I feel truly thin. My stomach is flat and I move lithely, bending effortlessly. I remember that feeling and I miss it.

Other than that, I have no “reason” to lose five pounds. At 135, I’m totally within an acceptable BMI. However, I know that if I don’t care about these five pounds, when will I start caring? At 10 pounds gained? 20? 50? As with any weight goal we establish for ourselves, it’s a personal preference as to what is acceptable. For me, five extra pounds is the top of my acceptable. I like being at the low end of the BMI scale. I am at home there.

2. If I don’t lose, will I be OK with it? In a word: no.

I know my body functions better at a lighter weight and so, if it’s within my power to do so, I will lose five pounds. If, however, my body will not give them up despite my best (and not crazy) efforts, I will make my peace. But in the meantime, no, I’m not OK with these five pounds and I want them gone. I will, however, be patient and give my body the time it needs to disperse of them.

3. How I’ll lose these five buggers is probably the toughest question. I eat roughly 1300-1500 calories a day, so eating less really isn’t an option. However, my choices are subject to change.

Just as I did the last time, I’m restricting my S foods to 2-3 a day. While I haven’t eaten as “badly” as before, my current intake could use a little tweaking. I’ll also increase my activity level the best I can and get back to a regular meditation schedule to lessen my stress. Weight gain isn’t solely a result of eating more and moving less. I’m under a lot of pressure these days and I know I need to deal with it in a more loving and kind fashion. That I recognize this is 99 percent of the battle. The other 1 percent should be a cinch once I get my brain around it.

You all know, it’s easier to lose four or five pounds than 104 or 105 pounds. It’s best I start now. Besides, I can’t afford a new wardrobe! (And I really like these new jeans.)
What do you challenge yourself to do? What do you strive to do with your body? What motivates you? How do you plan for it?

Knock It Off! has begun. I’ll let you know if and when I get there. Thanks, as always, for listening.

15 comments:

  1. Isn't it funny how it isn't always how much you eat, but what you eat? Eating the same calories except of different things can create havoc.

    I have asked myself those same questions about being happy where I am. Unlike you, I certainly could lose more weight according to the charts. I ask myself if I would be happy with the restrictions that would call for, and currently that answer is no. I always leave the door open for change.

    That said, I did gain a few pounds last month, so I am just tightening up the reins a little bit.

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  2. I lost a few pounds over the summer and then started a new job. With the stress of the new job and moving, I got lax about my eating--and lo and behold I gained the weight back, plus one more pound. I have been "released" from physical therapy for my knees, and though they will never be perfect, I can start exercising again (riding the bike, walking, the elliptical). I also MUST tighten the reins on my eating.

    I think I look okay in my clothes, but then I see myself in pictures and am not happy. Getting a new driver's license on Friday was my wake-up call.

    Ali

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  3. I think this sentence: "You all know, it’s easier to lose four or five pounds than 104 or 105 pounds." says it all...and why you have to stay on top of it. I know you can do this - it will be interesting to see how long it takes you. My guess? Not very long. BTW, you still look DAMN GOOD, woman!

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  4. You've got your head on straight. You'll do it and I'm here cheering you on. (and learning)

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  5. Very interesting post, Lynn. I understand your desire to lose the added 5 pounds, even though you still look great. If I had dealt with five new pounds a few years ago, I wouldn't have regained so much of my weight. My weight loss efforts have been very slow, and as I read your post a lightbulb went off in my brain.

    If I piece my food history together--before, during, and after diets, it is clear that I also have a problem with the "S" foods. I'm also very likely insulin resistant (according to my Dr.), and the "S" foods would be a factor. I would be interested in learning how you limit them. Do you have starches at only one or two meals a day--and what kind of starches? It sounds like the artificial sweeteners are off-limits also.

    I need to explore this new information and probably change my plan accordingly. Thanks for the lightbulb moment.

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  6. What's amazing is that when I was in my 20s and 30s, I could lose 5 pounds in a few days without much thought. Now, it takes about 2 weeks and I have to make sure that they stay off for another two weeks so that my body can get used to this lower weight and not shoot back with the intake of a few too many calories.

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  7. First, your last paragraph ... what's with the "IF"?? Second, I love your boots in that shot. Can barely wait until my legs get thin enough to get into boots again.

    I'm not happy where I am. Obviously. But I'm getting there. I'm starting to have saggy skin tho so my next question was "what will I do if I get healthy and have loads of extra skin hanging and drooping around"? Unfortunately my answer is: save up for a tummy tuck.

    Argh. Vee at http://veegettinghealthy.blogspot.com

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  8. I don't know Lynn. Sometimes it seems like the 100 pounds was easier than 5 pounds now.

    I just read a little blip that talked about Clinton losing some weight by going on a strict vegan diet. The article said that there was quite a bit of evidence that people would lose weight by eating this way, (I think.)

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  9. It's true, the real challenge is keeping the weight off. I used to think that losing it was the hard part. For me, it's the reintroduction of food that was previously 'off-limits'. Finding that balance can be such a challenge. I think you look absolutely fantastic (and Vee was right about those boots - you are totally rockin' those puppies!)
    Great mentality, good motivation. You'll do it. :)

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  10. Yes it is all about feeling your best, even if that means a difference of 5 lbs. Good for you!

    I currently eat one serving of grain a day, at the most, and usually keep fruits to 2 or 3, depending on the size. (No other S.) I've lost almost 100 lbs by eating Primarian, but unlike you I eat full fat dairy (because it increases satiety for me.)

    I'm finally starting to feel like this is my body. It is strong and functions well. I used to believe that my metabolism was broken, now I realize it was the way I stored fat from starches and sugars.

    I still want to lose 60 more lbs, and then maintain! Yet in the meantime I am loving this feeling of strength and agility. I enjoy trusting my body!

    Thanks for sharing your journey!

    -RNegade

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  11. We are in the same boat. For a number of reasons, I haved re-gained 10 pounds. I have held steady with this extra 10 pounds for about a year now. I can't seem to make peace with them, so I am trying to lose them. We'll see how it goes.

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  12. Hello,
    Found your blog through Lori's Finding Radiance. Really enjoy it, and will read regularly. Your weight loss is truly inspirational.

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  13. I'm right there with you! Maintenance is so hard. Monday...I'm working to lose at least 6 pounds! Stupid pounds!!

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  14. My challenge is the same as your's - getting the white carbs and sugar out of my diet as much as possible. It is working too. I am losing inches in places that I have always struggled to lose.

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  15. You are smart about the five pounds. My skinny jeans continue to sit sadly in a sterlite box d/t a twenty pound weight gain. And so, physical challenges (climbing camelback to the top), or anything that increases physical activity and also, eating 'cleaner' (e.g. whole grains, vegetables, proteins). It may take a year to lose but I swear that, like you, weight gain (after this loss) will not go beyond five pounds...it just simply is not worth it.

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